Not gonna lie, I have never cried while watching it… because the first time I watched it, I already knew Sherlock was going to commit suicide but really be alive due to a fan comic I read on DA (where the one who jumped was actually Irene Adler). Plus my parents were just strolling in at the part where Sherlock is on the roof, and they were helplessly intrigued and needed to ask me what was going on every 10 seconds…

The second time I watched it, I was by myself, in my bed, with headphones on at 5am… I tried making some tears, but nothing came out… instead, I could just feel my heart screaming…

The next few watches were the same… no tears, just my heart aching for john and trying to figure out how Sherlock did it…

Then when I watched it today, I didn’t really feel anything… obviously my heart has gone numb, but i was kind of hoping to preserve those feelings until 2013…

I just hope I don’t lose interest till then… I gotta stop re-watching them….